I have a roof over my head. My own roof, my one achievement. But I’m still not happy. I still long for a relationship..to turn into marriage to have that dream come true. Even just starting at the very beginning, someone to get excited about meeting for a date over, someone to hug, someone to ask how your day is going and actually care, someone to travel with -experience going on holiday with even just for a week. Feeling loved. Not always alone and the awkward odd one out.
I’ve always wanted to find a job or career that has room to progress but have shied away from the commitment of study. Time, effort, money. Purpose. That’s all I really want. To feel like im working towards something not just flatlining. I feel like over and over again i get into this rut and I can not get myself out.
Train of Thought 